Wonderstruck is a word I discovered in a Taylor Swift song. It's such a fascinating word to me because in the context of Miss Swift's song, it is a breathless moment of enchantment. It is literally the act of taking delight in something or someone.
I think about musicals, mostly how much they disturb me a little, or more like how spontaneous song scares me. How gestures are sensational and grand and everything seems just a bit too much. Like when you're a child, eyes aglow in a field of fireflies. Where fossils still hold the power to thrill you. And constellations are maps to feats of imagination unparalleled. When I think of the word wonderstruck I wonder when was the last time I ever stood in awe of something?
I think this world makes it very easy to be bored. With everything flying through so swiftly it sometimes feels like I never have time to fully savor a person or thing without having to hurry on to the next big thing. And in the midst of our big things, it feels commonplace to hide vulnerabilities that make you human, rose colored child-like dreams, in favor of logic. But I don't want a life like this...free of anything that makes the world a luminous place. I want a life that feels like Nine - to - Survival Job at least sometimes. To stand in awe of Jesus who speaks when we turn everything down to hear Him. To pursue wonder and curiosity and the beauty of one true conversation. Of human connection, and hand-written letters, books passed on to so many hands over a hundred years. The wind's song caressing the leaves as a bow to a cello, rich and deep.
You want to see a miracle? Look into the eyes of the next person you talk to. I mean really look. Put away your phone. Turn down the misconceptions and probable scenarios and selfish expectations. Listen to the ebbing flow of their voice. Honor them by looking directly into their eyes, instead of living one foot in and one foot out. The miracles' standing in front of you. The miracle is what's got your chest rising and falling.
***I've only read halfway through Wildfell and I think Anne deserves more acclaim than she was given.